Umm Ya

Well, I did not follow my plan. I got to work, I was happy to see my friend MG, she gave me a pair of beautiful earrings for my B-day (I LOVE to get earrings), then things went downhill from there. I tried to behave, let things roll off my shoulders, umm ya, not so much. More like things roll off my tongue and right out my mouth!! I just don't know when to shut up. I seem to be sowing the seeds of irritation, aggravation and just plain discord. This all is in my attempt to make improvements to a difficult situation. Humph! Eventually I came to my senses and spoke to somebody (calmly and rationally too), who can actually help make a difference. Therefore little seeds of hope have been planted in me once more. Now we will wait to what type of fruit is brought forth.

In an attempt to free my mind from continuous reality and just plain stress, I have made a small purchase. I will start reading Audry Niffenegger's The Time Traveler's Wife . I have small amount of time and activity that I fully plan to utilize in full - to prevent the wasting away of myself, as I dance my way through nursing school.

Enjoy your day - Make a positive difference.

Finally Friday

Today, I took my first at home online test. I did not fail, I passed, and I did not cheat by using the book, or online power point presentation. Its nice to pass, but it would have been great to get an "A".
I am not prepared mentally for work tonight. I don't know if it is better to kinda shut down, and just go with the flow, or if I should be me, and act a I normally would. I like to be outgoing, and joke with my co-workers, but then, I let it all in and I am affected by the tension, irritation, and frustration in the atmosphere. I don't think I expect too much, but in comparison to how people act, I must. Maybe I will make my goal, a combination or compromise between the two, but how to do that?
Anyway, nothing to contemplative for the moment. Here's wishing you a great time, while your on your way.

A pleasant joy.

I thought I was smarter than this. Turns out, I have things to learn - hence the schooling. Well it is nice to know that I am not perfect, maybe a little more than average (I have to toot my own horn a little), but not lacking - for the most part anyway.

I had the distinct ability to feel the most precious thing on this earth yesterday, a newborn child's skin. She was perfect, lovely, calming, and she reaffirmed that there is joy in this world. Not caused by actions or behavior, but just by life itself. I often forget that, joy that is, and I am glad and thankful for the reminder.

Joy to you!

Happy Birthday to Me

I find myself wondering WTF? In a world where so many people claim to be good, professional, proactive, caring, and are in it for the good of us all, again I say WTF! While being told to "better yourself, better your profession, improve your finances, and increase your earnings, get a higher education - You Can Do It", they are really saying ya ya ya sounds good, good luck to ya, but don't let it interfere with when and where I need you to be. I did not want to start off on a sour note, so with three deep cleansing breaths, we will get on our way. . .


As my profile says, I am new to blogging, I am looking for an outlet for my thoughts While on the Way through life. They (my thoughts that is), are not all that astounding, but they are mine. You may have some of the same views, or opposing views, which I like to hear, and discuss. I may just come around to your way of thinking. . . it has happened before.

Has this happened to you? You go about your daily activities and a running dialog forms in your head, not of words only, but feelings mixed with memories, and contemplations? That's the way I think, with feelings, mixed with memories. It is calming, and demands the slightest bit of attention to analyze just where it comes from - and how to apply it. But when I ask my Love out loud if he thinks that way, he smiles at me and calls me a dork - so I dunno.